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The Race I Didn’t Run

Last year after finishing the 13.1 Marathon NY, I got an email with a limited-time offer to run the race in 2011 for a really great price — $30. Those of you familiar with half marathon race fees know this is a steal. A typical half marathon can run you anywhere between $50 and $150. It was a no-brainer for me to sign right up.

And then I got injured. Read Part 1 and Part 2 of that fun story for the details.

About a week before this race that I backed out of,  I got an email through my blog contact form from a reader. She said, among other things:

Your final race, Race to Deliver, was actually my first race! And now, I’m training for my first half marathon, the 13.1 Marathon in Queens on April 2. I really identified with your article because although my birthday won’t fall on the day of the half as yours did, another special anniversary will – it will be 21 years since I had open heart surgery at age 3. To think that I’ll be using my patched-up heart to pump myself through a half marathon is really amazing.

Rachel’s story was son incredible and our situations oddly similar — including our clear shared love of the em dash — that I asked if she would be willing ton write a guest post.

This is a big deal because I never had a guest post before, since I think I am the most awesome so why dilute that with someone else? But in this case, I am sure Rachel will inspire you as much as she inspired me. Enjoy.

Rachel’s Half Marathon

It’s been exactly one week since I ran my first half marathon and if it weren’t for the dangling medal hanging in my bedroom window, I would have to keep reminding myself that “Yes, that race did happen. Yes, you finished it. Yes, you ran the whole thing.”

A few weeks ago, I read Dori’s NBC GO Healthy NY article, How I Got into the Greatest Marathon in the World. Her piece about running really resonated with my own running story.

I am a recent Manhattanite, having moved here in August to attend graduate school at Columbia University. I had been running fairly regularly over the last two years, but never more than three miles and always on a treadmill, despite the fact that I was then living in beautiful, lovely, oh-how-I miss-your-weather California. I ran just because it was something I knew how to do, and because it was difficult, painful, and often tedious (especially on that treadmill), so I figured it must be good for you, right? But when I came to Columbia, I finally got sick of the dreadmill. Our campus gym has no windows, and one day, I realized that I could be running in Central Park—like that scene in Marathon Man—instead of trudging along here like a hamster.

So I did; I circled around the reservoir imitating Dustin Hoffman in his best running form. But then the leaves started changing colors, and having lived in California my whole life, I never really saw these explosions of yellow, orange and red. I decided to ditch the reservoir and explore the rest of the park. Checking a map, I figured out a route that would total my typical three miles. But I got lost, so I ended up running nearly five! Five, really? I thought it was impossible to do more than three miles. I also kept getting lost, so my mileage kept building without my knowing. (The perks of a bad sense of direction!) Finally, I decided to just go for the six-mile loop. Not only did I finish it, but it wasn’t that bad—especially when I could people watch, look at the city’s architecture and admire the changing leaves. But even as the leaves left and the frigid temperatures set in, I continued running. Ironically, I have now run outside more in New York’s nasty weather than I ever did in California.

So eight weeks ago, when my roommate asked if I wanted to do a half marathon with her, I was all on board.

Actually, no, I wasn’t.

The six mile loop was one thing, a half marathon was double that. Oh, and it was the end of February and spring was nowhere in sight. I surely couldn’t double my distance in fewer than eight weeks without getting injured or frostbite. But when she registered for the race, I felt like I was missing out and I realized it might actually be fun training together. So I signed up too. We simply did two days of shorter runs and then added one mile each week to our long run. We both felt pumped, until our twelve-mile runs, which we did separately and went poorly for each of us. Moreover, the week before the race, I got slammed in school. My thesis needed heavy editing and I was under intense pressure to pass a foreign language exam to get my degree in May. I bombed a practice test for the exam two days before the race, so that by the night before, I just wanted to get the run over with. It had become another dreaded thing on my to-do list.

The race, though, was anything but another to-do; it was simply fantastic. The 13.1 Marathon race had a smaller field than  NYRR races, which made for a less intimidating atmosphere and also made interactions with the spectators more intimate. My roommate and I were actually running a bit late that morning. The 7 line had service issues, making our trip to Queens slower than we intended. We ended up rushing to check our gear and use the bathroom before the race. We made it to the back of the race line with just a minute or two to spare.

Being late though ended up taking my mind of the fact that I actually had to run 13.1 miles. (And the rush to use the restroom beforehand forced me to get over my major phobia of port-o-potties.) I thought we would get a bunch of disapproving glares from the seasoned runners when we arrived at the back of the corral. But no, everyone was smiling and excited! They were taking photos with friends and instead of stretching, they were dancing around. The DJ at the start line put on Michael Jackson, and all of the sudden, I just felt ready to move.

My roommate and I started off at a decent pace. We used our cell phones to get a rough idea of our pace, but we ever intended to make any sort of “good time,” we just wanted to finish. This was a personal distance for us, so any time would be a personal record. We each had a couple rough patches–my roommate’s hip was bothering her sometimes and at one point, my left ankle and right knee were aching. But we just kept going; one of us would talk about school or our summer plans, so our minds would be on that topic and not on the specter of running so many more miles. The spectators were great and would shout out our names, which were printed on our bibs. We saw some girls with Columbia sweatshirts and we yelled back, “Yay Columbia!” (I always have to refrain from saying my undergrad cheer, “Go Bears!” Still haven’t figured out what Columbia’s chant is.) The music stations also helped, and I’d say the hardest part of the course was the long loop around the lake, where there was no music and huge mud puddles. My roommate would say, “Time to ford a river!” whenever we got to one.

Surprisingly, we ran the entire race! We’d always taken at least a stop or two at traffic lights during our training runs, so it was awesome that we ran the whole thing. At mile 12, we picked up our pace and at mile 13, we went to a fully powered-Usain Bolt sprint. Some guy screamed to his friend, “Let’s do this!” at the last .1 mile, and being adjacent to the guy, I felt the need to obey. Ed. Note.—Remove “at the last .1 mile” from that sentence and you’d have an accurate description of my sex life.

Running that last bit was an ecstatic moment, almost an out-of-body experience. Am I really crossing the finish line? Did I really just run 13.1 miles? The end was so thrilling that I questioned its reality. My roommate and I high-fived each other after we crossed and giddily grabbed our foil wraps and medals. I was eager to grab that medal and my roommate was excited about the wrap. She had received medals from 10Ks before, but never a wrap! She kept saying how it was a status symbol. (I just think of those wraps as the earthquake safety blankets that us California kids were required to have in our school emergency kits.)

The celebration at the end was great–including disco dancers, guys with disco balls on their heads, and a bear. We also made decent time, considering we weren’t thinking about time at all: 2 hours, 22 minutes and 14 seconds, a 10:51 pace, only about a minute more than my 10K pace.

Besides having my roommate by my side, what got me through those 13.1 miles was thinking about how many other things I have accomplished in my life, and how many other things my friends and family have accomplished. One thing that I frequently thought about was how twenty-one years ago, at the age of three, I had open heart-surgery during the first week of April. (I was born with a ventrical septum defect, which is basically a hole in your heart.)

My heart has always been my main reason for exercising. I’ve never really had to exercise to lose weight—I’ve just always wanted to protect my cardiovascular health. Ed. Note.—As EVERYONE should.

As ridiculous as this sounds, when I crossed that finish line, I thanked my heart for being so good to me over the last twenty-one years and for doing a stellar job throughout that race.


When my roommate and I returned from Queens (and yes, we wore our medals and foil the whole subway ride back), we showered and celebrated with diner food. Then, I headed to the library and took another practice exam. Filled with new confidence, I performed much better on this test. For me, there was nothing “half” about this half marathon—it imbued me with a fuller sense of self-esteem that I know will power me through these last weeks of school.

How amazing is Rachel’s story and her half marathon!

Check out my new NBC NY post Dori’s Quest: Bari at The Bari Studio — the studio screams NYC and is a new take on the typical barre-class.

4 Mile Race to Deliver Recap PR!!!

I signed up for the NYRR 4 Mile Race to Deliver race with one goal in mind — to run a sub 9 minute mile so I can move up in an NYRR corral for future races. I knew I could do it based on some of my other runs — namely the fact that I tend to bust out the first mile of EVERY run with an 8:30ish minute mile — but the main obstacle was my left knee, which acts up when I run fast for too long.

I met up with my friend Melissa before the race. I really should have thought to take some pictures before and after the race to spice up the post (no Brightroom photogs at this one) but I didn’t think about blogging at all that day. Since I won’t be able to break this post up with pictures from the race, I will instead insert pictures from the day before the race, when I MET TINA FEY.

I KNOW!

When the gun went off it took a full seven minutes to get to the start line. NYRR races usually start much more smoothly than this, but it was very narrow at the start and hard to get going. Also, the corral system was a little weird and didn’t seem to be organized well by pace. Melissa and I both ran our fastest race at a similar pace but we were split into separate corrals, and there were many walkers in my corral even though it was not in the back. I started my Garmin .07 miles before we got to the start because I was overwhelmed and anxious with so many people so close all around me. I didn’t want to deal with my Garmin when I needed to focus on getting moving.

You can see the crowded start in this picture from nyrr.org:

Race to Deliver Start

It was very hard to start out running at first because of these crowds, and we weaved like crazy. I know this is not the best race strategy but I knew that if I didn’t start running at my goal pace I would not be able to get into it. My thing is this: if I start my run fast, even when it gets hard and I slow down, I am not actually running slowly. I feel slow because I am slower than I started, but I am actually still running fast. But when I start slower it is harder for me to speed up enough. Does that make sense? Does that happen to you too?

I turned my music on, but I missed my favorite part of my first song — and the reason I made this song first. Girl Talk released a new album earlier in the week and as soon as I heard Triple Double I knew it had to be my first song. It starts with 1901, one of my favorite running songs! It also incorporates Paint it Black and that is just awesome. But I missed the entire song pretty much because of the weaving game. Melissa pushed me this first mile. She would pull ahead of me and it was hard to keep up but I was able to. We would both weave and meet back up. She got me through that first mile in less than 9 minutes. And I was able to enjoy my second song, Stereo Love, which made me very happy. I learned this one at Core Fusion and identified it at the eyebrow threading place using my V Cast Song ID app on my BlackBerry. That song got me into a really nice groove and I was able to smile.

At the beginning of the second mile I found my own comfortable pace. Even though I was running around 8:30 I felt great and I didn’t feel like I was trying to keep up with Melissa anymore; the speed felt natural. We stayed near each other but ran very much on our own, with our music playing. About a quarter through this mile my stomach started hurting on my lower left side. It was not a cramp, it was just pain. The pain was so bad I considered stopping. I considered some scenarios:

  • I leave the race
  • I leave the race, rest for a minute, come back
  • I slow down — pain might get better, but it might just mean I run with pain for a longer amount of time
  • I push through — if I stay on this pace, I will be finished soon anyway

I went with option 4. Good thing I did.

I started mile 3 and my stomach calmed down as we climbed up hills. I think the climbing stopped all my bouncing and helped. That mile zipped by! I felt great the entire time. I was able to smile again at my speed. I lost Melissa during this mile but I knew she was doing great would finish strong.

Mile 4, almost done! I started feeling nauseous from pushing myself so hard but I was so close to the end. I knew I could slow down in this mile and still achieve my goal of sub 9, so I ran through the nausea with every intention of slowing down a little. But since it was my last mile, my body decided to run it fast anyway. My mind had zero control. I looked down at my Garmin and saw I only had half a mile left. Unconsciously again, I sped up. I didn’t mean to but when I looked down my pace was at 8:00. I saw the runners ahead of me turning the final corner to finish the race and I felt jealous — I wanted to be there! I wasn’t feeling so hot at all and I just needed to be done. I was so nauseous! I had nothing in me to sprint so I figured I’d just shuffle my legs through the finish because I already knew I met my goal. But when I looked down at my watch I was at a 7:00 pace! I guess the adrenaline at seeing the finish and knowing I was almost done caused me to sprint without realizing I was sprinting.

TINA BREAK!

So anyway, I had Girl Talk’s new song Every Day during this last mile. I love how this song uses John Lennon’s Imagine –– but  I realized after the race that I didn’t even notice this song or even Imagine playing. I must have really been either in the zone, feeling beat or both. I did notice the final song Steady Shock begin, but that is the last thing I remember thinking about my music.

One thing I noticed during this race is that when I push myself, I become attuned to my body rather than my thoughts. The biggest difference between running for speed and running for enjoyment (not so imply that speed does not = enjoyment, it is just a very different type of enjoyment). I didn’t notice my songs because my mind was inside, focused on my body, how I was feeling, and there were no resources left to think about anything else.

Perhaps as I focus more on speed and my body gets used to it, I will be able to run fast and be with my thoughts.

That said, my music did push me. I was vaguely aware of it at some times. I was thankful I chose such good, fast songs. The words might have lost their meaning but the music did not.

Hm. As I look back at this list I realized I didn’t include Oh No from Girl Talk’s new album. I meant to. I even emailed myself to remind myself to specifically use this one. That song would have been perfect for that first weaving mile (move b*tch, get out the way, get out the way b*tch, get out the way) and contains this, like, one second tease of Paper Planes that every time I hear it makes me feel what could only be the female equivalent of blue balls.

As I approached the finish, I was feeling shitty but I knew my friend Ben was somewhere so I made a half assed attempt to look around, but I was so nauseous and out of it by this time, it was just too hard. I couldn’t even smile as I crossed the finish because I felt so spent. But as soon as I was done and could stop running, my nausea dissipated and my strength came back and I smiled nonstop for the rest of the day. And the next.

Official time: 33:55
Official pace: 8:28

PR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not only did I reach my goal, I killed it!

Garmin splits:
Mile 1 – 8:59 (includes .07 walking before the start)
Mile 2 – 8:23
Mile 3 – 8:23
Mile 4 – 8:02
Mile 4.07 – 7:12

I am so happy! I don’t even realize I CAN run this fast, so I just don’t do it. I think it is time to start pushing myself more and seeing what I am really capable of. The best part — my knee was 100% this entire race! I don’t know why sometimes it hurts and sometimes it doesn’t, but I actually didn’t think about my knee at all during the race. I was worried about how it would hold up before I started running, but once I was running I forgot I even had a problem with it.

And what a difference a year makes. I ran this same race last year in 40:00.

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