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Bringing Me Right Back

On Thursday, I was at a store that sold the same brand of unpasteurized coconut water — Exotic Superfoods — that I drank heavily while training for the marathon last summer and fall. It had been awhile since I was in a store that sold this brand, so I bought a couple bottles. When I took my first sip, it brought me right back to my training. I felt like I was still in that time; I felt like I just finished running 18 miles.

It was a really weird sensation. We’re all used to hearing a song and being brought back to a specific moment or time, but I had no idea a sip of coconut water would have the same effect. It was eerie in a way, and it made me actually miss that time I was training for a marathon.

My back hurt last week, so I’ve been resting. Since I’m feeling a lot better now, I wanted to exercise again but didn’t want to jump into anything that would require using my back muscles. Luckily, the weather was not below freezing this morning so I decided to go out for my first run — since November.

I only ran once after completing my marathon. It was probably two weeks after the race, in late November. The run sucked for a number of reasons — I felt extremely dehydrated and I forgot to bring my water bottle. I had to leave the park in search of water. My body was also clearly in need of a break  from running after two marathon attempts in a row. And while I was happy to finish the eight miles I set out for that day, I also knew it was time for a break. Luckily, this coincided with winter. I am not a fan of winter running.

But today was the perfect time to run again! I didn’t have to go crazy with the layers and over the last few weeks, I’ve been really missing running. Deeply. Also, I signed up for a 10K race in April.

I thought it would feel strange, unnatural, to run again. I don’t know why. Last year, after a much longer break, I jumped back in easily. But this time, I thought my legs would forget what to do and it would just feel hard. It didn’t. I thought I would lose my speed. I didn’t.

As soon as I started going, I felt comfortable. And even though I ran for a long time before ever training for a marathon, everything about this morning — from going to the far opposite corner from my apartment to get a Garmin signal, to running to the park and up and down the streets, to finishing near my apartment and picking up a coffee to sip as I got ready for work — it all brought me back to my training. I even considered getting an iced coffee after, which I often did after my morning training runs. But it was about 85 degrees at the time, so I stuck to hot today.

The run didn’t feel strange, but the memories of the months I spent training for the marathon did. I felt like I was in two places at once — September, 2011 and February, 2012. Or like I was two different mes. Or like I was watching a much more naive version of myself, only instead of watching her, I was being her.

I’m sure that as I start running again I’ll feel more in the present, especially as I start training for races. For now, I kind of like how running is bringing me right back.

A Follow-Up

When I published my post last week, I expected some backlash, but I can honestly say I did not expect the anger. I really don’t want to harp on this, but I did want to clarify a few points that I don’t think I expressed well last week, if at all:

  • I took Core Fusion (and tried numerous other barre classes) regularly for about 10 months, from January, 2010 – November, 2010, at which point my hip injury was diagnosed. I was no longer able to do that type of workout. I’ve been taking Refine Method for about 14 months, from December 2010 – February, 2012, at which point I wrote last week’s post. I know it seems like I jumped from one bandwagon to the next, but I gave it more than a year to see if I could heal, see if I could reclaim my love with the barre. Ultimately, I couldn’t. And I felt that I should share — had a responsibility to share — my own personal reasoning since it was clear I switched, but it wasn’t clear why.
  • One commenter mentioned I lack integrity for praising one method so passionately, and now praising another. Another called my reviews fallible. And while all reviews written by human beings are fallible to an extent, I think it is more a reflection on my personality than my integrity. When I love something, I want everyone else to love it too. Or at the very least, to try it for themselves in case they might realize they love it too! I also trust that people will read about my experience, and then make their own decisions on what they’d like to do with that knowledge I shared.
  • On that note, all workouts have the potential to be dangerous. The founder of Refine Method (which, like any exercise program, carries that same potential, which is why it has a very small class size) has told me countless times that she doesn’t think running is safe and has seen many injuries from runners who take her classes. I listened to what she said, and I decided that while her points were valid, I still wanted to run a marathon — so I ran a marathon. If you read my blog to learn about fitness classes, I  hope that you can do the same. I’m sharing my experience, but what you  ultimately decide to do should be your own choice.
  • I didn’t mean to imply that everyone who takes barre classes will get an injury. I got an injury. One I will have for the rest of my life. I know how I got it, but that doesn’t mean I think you will too. We all have different weaknesses, body types and susceptibilities. But that doesn’t mean that every word I wrote in every post about Core Fusion isn’t true — it is. I expressed my love for the class and how it made me feel at the time; how it got me through major life events; my progress and improvements; my successes and achievements. I captured an entire year of transformation. A year of my life through this exercise method! A couple of people demanded I take down my old content, but my blog is a progression through my life, and I can’t imagine removing so much information about my life just because my opinions have changed. We learn through experience, and I feel fortunate to have that experience archived here.

For a much more clear and eloquent post from someone who made the same switch in exercise methods as I did, please check out Cameo’s follow-up post to mine.

I didn’t want to write this post today. I wasn’t planning to. I was actually going to write, well, a class review actually, but once I started typing a quick note to acknowledge last week’s post it turned into this rambling. So here we are. I don’t think I need to defend myself and that was not my intent here.

I think I feel better now.

I used to like one thing and now I like another. Let’s move on to happier things, like picking a new winner of the ellasport giveaway - the original winner coincidentally just did a giveaway for the same brand on her own blog. Congratulations to j. at kissing-frogs.net! J. likes the yellow Gramercy Park workout tank. I hope she wears it well, it is a fabulous top.

Return to normalcy next week? Yes. See you then kids.

 

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